Monday, April 27, 2009

Still I need to reminisce.

So, we're almost at the end of April (umm...that would be 2009) and rumours (or rumors) should be flying pretty soon and this is the way it looks. They may get to March 14th this month (or better!!!) so we could (COULD) be looking at Milana's little face either in about a week or 5 weeks from now. Could it be? O solo mio - I'm trying to stay so 'zen' about this but HA, who am I kidding. So many thought keep bumping into each other in my head. "Who is she, where is she, will she like us, will Dahlia love her (and not try and kill her ;o), am I rocking the boat here and ruining a really good thing, do I have the energy (that's the biggy)???"

And yet, these thoughts push the other ones down to (almost) oblivion. "How can it be that we are about to be blessed twice in this life-time, how is it that my heart will actually expand yet again to be filled with the love and joy that only a child can bring, how come, of all the people in this world, that we will be chosen to nuture and love and guide yet another little angel?"

How can this be?


But these things I plan won't happen right away. Slowly, steadily, surely, the time approaches when the vision will be fulfilled. If it seems slow, be patient! For it will surely take place. It will not be late by a single day.

And for a gentle reminder of the gift we've already received.

Then............. Dahlia in China (Nov 2004) the day after meeting her. I love this picture - laughing her head off at something crazy I must have done. Dahlia is a "hat" girl. And now........

......and so, we wait, for the next chapter to begin.



Susie and Gordie said...

Is adoption the greatest? You are at the most wonderful stage where the anticipation of seeing your child's face for the first time consumes your entire being. I absolutely loved those few weeks before referral. And then that magical day arrives... Cloud 9!

Misty Rice said...

Hey thanks for stopping by blog and say hi. You have a beautiful family and I will be back to check on you guys. I love her cheesy grin too.

Jednet said...

Oh Wanda,

Inching, inching closer and closer. It's heartwrenching. Never really knowing what is going on. You have been incredibly patient for 37 months. She will come, but when.

You are definatley rocking the boat. The boat will rock for a while after she arrives, but it will settle again. Hmmm...maybe it's less like rocking the boat. I think it's more like changing boats. As you step into the new boat of a family of four, it rocks, then it settles, but things are never the same as they were when you just had one. Sometimes I miss those days.....then I see my children interacting, helping/loving each other and my heart swells. May you have the same experience.....soon.


DawnS said...

Oh you have brought tears to my eyes. The good thing that we already know is that after you are together the wait does fade away. You absolutely are rocking the boat and maybe you will even get seasick for a bit, but it will smooth out. Last night my girls were rolling around on the floor giggling and laughing and THAT is what makes my heart swell (most of the time they are arguing of course). As hard as it sometimes is - going from one to two - and everything else you go through with an adoption, I would do it all again in a heartbeat! I am super, super excited for you to see that sweet face!!!

Karen said...

Isn't it strange? We're a LID behind you in LID time, not real time. But those same thoughts go thru my mind continually too.